backwards living.

I know that "normal" doesn't exist for just about anyone. So why is it that we continue to compare ourselves against outdated social norms? Is it that big of a deal if I want to date someone shorter, skinnier, or daintier than me? For years I've had people attacking me for even considering dating someone shorter than me, and with me being 5'7" and interested in Asians or Mexicans, it's been pretty hard finding a mate that would tower over me. And who likes to be towered over anyways? I have always felt a need to be dominant, but not competitive. To be dominant would mean that I AM superior and not TRYING to be. Maybe it's because for years and years and years women have been put second and I am trying to compensate. Or maybe it's the way I was raised, bi-culturally and with no stereotypical bindings holding my mind captive. My parents weren't the picture perfect couple that America paints. They didn't follow social norms by marrying outside their race and breaking the stereotype of a white male and Filipina partnership. So I guess it's really in my genes to live backwards.
I take the dominant role in my romantic relationships. I drive, I provide, and I love. I don't cook. I rarely clean. But no matter what, I make it work. I don't take pictures of my lover and myself to show to the world how happy we are. I don't count down the days to our next anniversary. I don't create cutesy gifts to show how much I love him. I don't get my panties tied up in a bunch if I don't get what I want. Wait, that last part might not be true. Anyways, I am not like every other girl out there putting up a facade for people to envy. Backwards living, I tell you the bad so I can truly enjoy the good and keep it to myself.
And in other news of living backwards, why is it that my married friends are NOT pregnant while my unmarried friends are popping out babies like it's going out of style? Not to say that traditions should be followed, but it just goes to show that people can make things work if they really try. We need to stop pressuring people to live the way that society dictates because society is a piece of crap. If we followed society's rules, it would be like believing in a nasty rumor someone spread during recess. Are we still incapable of individual thought? This is the one area that I do give mankind more credit than it deserves. We are intelligent people. We are capable of something other than group think. Let us not be mindless drones herded into the gates of mental captivity.

Backwards living, not such a bad thing.