i'd like to..

i'd like to fall in love again. the overwhelming feeling that encompasses you when you meet someone new or indulge in your passion is incomparable to anything (except the use of recreational substances). i would like to recreate the first few months of the first time i fell in love. the excitement of something new was like a sedative for all the bad things and a catalyst for all the wonderful things in life. suddenly everything was in its right place, especially me.
alas, nature has to be cruel and makes the feeling so intense that almost nothing can suffice. love is so lovely. of course the beginning is always better than the ending, because who really enjoys when good things come to an end? and if it were love it would never truly end in the first place, right?
i don't want to fall in love with another person, surely i don't- for that would ruin the love that i've been dedicating myself to. i just want to feel the extreme sense of utter bliss once more. perhaps i don't need romantic love. i just need a new passion. or i need to rekindle my love for adventure and avoid my replacement for love (work).