today was an oddly wonderful day. no fighting, no rude customers, and no reason to have a bitter taste in my mouth. i slept in, saw my mom for once, dined on refined cupcakes, tried coconut water for the first time (which still has the consistency of milk in my mind), had good conversation, saw my cousin, and realized that life is mine for the making.
i'm getting older. sad, but true. i feel behind the times because i don't have my 401 k set up yet, but still feel a prudent hesitation about getting it started (especially with the lurking feeling of poverty that seems inevitable once i start school). i see my cousin achieving her dreams and can't help but think- what am i waiting for?
i am beginning to realize that aging isn't as cool as it seemed when i was 10, or even 20. i want to pause, rewind, and rearrange some things in my past. but since i don't have a magic delorean, i guess i'll have to settle for making each approaching day better than the last.
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