slacker

how do i wake up my ambition? it feels as if ever since i got sick, my over-achieving self has vanished and i have been doing the bare minimum to get by. i stopped going to the gym. stopped visiting my parents as often as i used to. i haven't hung out with the majority of my friends more than once over break. and while i do feel good about dropping a class that will have no relevance to me in my endeavors, i still feel like a slacker about not completing my minor. oh well, what does a minor say about you other than that you had extra time in college or were prolonging your graduation so as to not enter the real world? 

so with each day passing and graduation coming closer, you'd think i'd be happier. you'd think i'd love to be done with this overcrowded campus. but alas, i am not. mostly because i don't know what to do after. partly because i think i might end up at grad school for their public health program. i doubt i'm old enough, experienced enough to start a career in my field. but who knows, maybe we need some young blood to start getting things done. i just hope my ambition doesn't wake up too late.