20.

i can never process the million and one thoughts running through my mind thoroughly enough. why why why must i think so spasmodically?

going to try to get through the top 20 thoughts.. hopefully this will make falling asleep a little easier.

1. should i or should i not quit my daytime hooker position
2. is the liberty i am SURE i would feel after quitting enough to cancel out the potential depressed feelings that would ensue
3. anunnaki, illuminati-- Avatar--robots- METROPOLIS.. . .. <--will i EVER get to the bottom of this
4. if i found out that the world is really a sham, how would i be able to keep on living
5. how can i convince myself that there IS a purpose to this life
6. overqualified for every position i apply to because there is NO position for a freshly graduated health science student in this economy.
7. should i watch daria or house tonight
8. i can probably sleep all day tomorrow.. for every tomorrow if i really wanted to.
9. why can't i just take time off and enjoy life sfk.gjagr.iuehgjk.ahertiuhk.rty83ouhw
10. i am pretty sure i am developing anger management issues
11. working for a boss you despise, fear, or are too friendly with is neither productive nor healthy
12. portishead, radiohead, talking heads, there sure are a lot of heads in my itunes
13. wish i knew what lady was thinking, and why her stomach is making that hideous noise
14. is it good or bad to see cops consistently in a neighborhood every night of the week
15. who opened my window this morning..SERIOUSLY
16. do i sleep walk or sleep-act
17. are babies really just overrated acts of self pity
18. cynicism: helping or hurting
19. there are clothes EVERYWHERE in this room [and in my car] so why do i find myself wearing the same thing everyday
20. am i attempting to go back to college to avoid the real monotonous world or do i really believe i have a purpose