avg.

i would love to delete all of my social networking sites. why don't i? because i, as pathetic as it may sound, actually network through them with people that i don't want in my innermost circles. don't go off thinking i'm a bitch because that's why you have sites too. and if you say "no it's not" well, then you're just full of shit. or- you're one of my best friends that likes to post videos on your REAL friends' pages.

anyways, i'd like to dwell for a minute on the fact that i often refrain from writing/blogging/speaking because i'm a pansy. more so because i hate to be misinterpreted, judged, and so on not by my intent, but by what other's seem to gather from my words. i am more than convinced that if i said half the things i truly mean to say i would lose about 90% of my social networkers and still have the remaining handful of unconditional friends. so why do i refrain again? because you can't detect sarcasm when you're good at it. you can't tell if i'm being serious or not if i speak in monotone. because you just can't get me unless you know me, and you can't know me until you can actually grasp the fact that people have thought processes and beliefs that are, surprise!, different from your own. and sorry for not giving society enough credit (or as i see it, just the right amount) but i don't believe that the average person in society can be selfless enough to acknowledge another human being without first thinking about how that person affects their own life.

luckily, the people i allow into my life are not just average people. or at least i've fooled myself into believing that they aren't. whatever the case is, it's been too long since i've had a clear mind and a good night's sleep. no apologies for the lack of clarity or finished thoughts though, it's your fault for reading in the first place.